| From: | Nina Guillory-DuPont |
| Relationship to Deceased: | Mother |
| In remembrance (Julia Mae Guillory-Francis) November 12, 2015 it’s 7am I’m on my way to the nursing home. The weather cloudy, dreary,and drizzling as I drove down the interstate I saw the clouds split and a beautiful ray came down. In my heart I knew today was the day those gates would open. I went in the room, told Madras good morning. She felt warm Which was odd, since she was cool all the days before. I sat at the foot of the bed, today for some strange reason my phone picked up internet. I remember telling her, oh Madras we have access today, let me tell you what’s going on in the world. lol. And I began news, weather,sports, Facebook. Giggling in the room at all the funny stuff waiting for her to comments with a funny statement….but she didn’t. As the day continued I remember being upset because she was still running fever and had not received her bath or medication..little did I know the new aide went to break and never returned. Finally they came to bath and give her medication. I told her, Madera I’ll step in the hall to give you, your privacy while they bathe you and give you medication. At that moment she made a loud noise almost to say stay with me..if I would have know that was the last time I would have heard her I never would have left the room. A few short minutes later the nurse told me I could return. When I walked in I noticed how suddenly pale Madera was, her breathing was so slow I could barely hear her. I ask in a desperate plea for help. What was happening? as the nurse said she is moving on. I stood by her side, and told her Thank you for giving me life and being my mom, and Thank you for allowing me to be there as she took those first steps in heaven. I told her I knew she would love it there because she would be healthy again, and Mommea, Pop and Johnny was waiting for her. She took her last breath and peacefully slipped away. Today is her Heavenly Birthday. I think of her daily, the good times and the bad. I know without each and everyone of those days I would not be the type of adult, and mother to my children I am today, without those days. I actually hear myself telling them things she told me….Mom I love you and miss you tremendously. I know you are with me I can feel it. Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe…..RIP Madera gone from this world, but never from my heart. Nine years ago, my life changed like never before, destined to never be the same again. I remember so well standing next to mom as she peacefully took her last breathe as she transitioned to be with the Lord and other loved ones. I remember being so angry days later cause she left. Why was life so cruel? They can fix everything else, but could not fix her. As the days turned to weeks, weeks to months, and today months made years. The anger has some what subsided and reality had set in, this is how God meant it to be. Things are so different, I had to learn to adjust as so many of you have also experienced with the lost of a mother. I have learned to be thankful for the memories. I can understand now it’s not that she wanted to go, It was destined that she did go. Her time, her duties, her purpose here on earth has been completed. She had done what God had planned for her. She raised myself and my three sibling, in which we all turned out a good life for ourselves. As I realize how long this post is lol…I will close with, Julia Francis your life molded our destiny, we shall not fail in making you proud. You are loved, You are MISSED every single day. Today I celebrate you with a bittersweet joy in my hearts, for I know you are not hurting and you are truly happily at rest. Please continue to come into my dreams, and leave little unspoken messages for me as I go through daily life. I Love You Madre. |